I sit at the bar in-between a young couple drinking wine and eating chilly and an older couple staring at the menu for fifteen minutes no drinks in front of them for a second I wonder if I should get a glass of red wine I see bottles to the right on the top shelf they look good but then I remember I am driving home in rush hour car to car traffic which does not mix well with wine I cannot lose focus for a second of feeling like a proper adult around strangers who barely notice I am sitting next to them