20 Things I Learned from 200 Days of Meditation

Some days I’m more focused than others. Meditating at the same time every day is ideal. Self-judgment only makes things worse. How many times I come back to the breath is more important than how many times I linger away. I can go for more than ten minutes without needing to look at my phone.Continue reading “20 Things I Learned from 200 Days of Meditation”

A Healthy Balance

I’m not used to having my anxiety come from external forces for an extended amount of time, especially at this magnitude. I’ve spent the last week in my head, trying to avoid the news as much as possible. I have gravitated towards good news, positive quotes, and tv shows while locking my feelings in aContinue reading “A Healthy Balance”

Part Three

I’ve been doing a lot of walking on the trails by my house lately. I began early last week when I decided to stop going to the gym. The trails weren’t too crowded then. I walked Monday thru Thursday then took a few days off because of the weather. This week, I have never seenContinue reading “Part Three”

Part Two

Because we are living in uncertain times, I thought maybe it would be a good idea to blog. I don’t know if it will be every day, every other day, or every few days. But, I want to share information and stories with you I think are important, along with some positivity. The blog postContinue reading “Part Two”

Life’s Going to Change

I’m a young woman with lung disease and a thyroid autoimmune disease.I was born three months early.A ventilator helped my under-developed lungs breathe for the first six weeks of my life.I was on oxygen for the first 2 1/2 years of my life.I’ve been on oxygen a couple of times since.I take an inhaler twiceContinue reading “Life’s Going to Change”

Beach Day

The sun reflects off the sand and the water, Causing reality to brighten passed the point of comfort. This moment is now blinded by light, As many people continue on with their time. How is everyone not impacted by this brightness? She thinks as she puts her phone back in her bag. Exchanging her phoneContinue reading “Beach Day”

Mantra for the Madness

The sounds of a cold echo between buildings. He ignores the coughing and sneezing, Turning up the volume on his headphones, Blasting a rock song into his brain. Everyone’s worried for no reason. That’s his mantra for the madness. He walks into a bar as rain begins to fall. There are people gathered together inContinue reading “Mantra for the Madness”

Settle into the Moment

I’m surrounded by people. I do not speak. I half-listen as my mind bounces around from one thought to another.  I catch words here and there. I clap and don’t realize I’m clapping. Awareness allows me to settle into the moment.  It takes several tries and I’m still not sure I got it. I checkContinue reading “Settle into the Moment”

healing

breathe in breathe out through the belly close my eyes focus on nothing calm the mind stop overthinking i’m healing my body is doing what it’s supposed to do things are improving round up my distractions they no longer serve me their familiarity isn’t comforting like breathing is in and out in and out distractionsContinue reading “healing”

My Body Remembers

My body remembers feeling the pain. I wasn’t supposed to feel pain. And yet, it’s ingrained in my body. Something went wrong. Nothing’s wrong now. And yet, I’m crying. The fear my body holds is visceral. My brain tries to calm me down. It does not work. I keep crying, I breathe. I panic. IContinue reading “My Body Remembers”