I'm writing this from a place of clarity, the place I get to be one week a month or 12 days if I'm lucky. The haze had cleared, the spirals have settled, I can pinpoint my feelings and work through them in more balanced ways. I'm not swinging from one emotional extreme to the other. I don't take things as personally. The lens I look at my life through isn't as low. My sadness has gone back out to sea for the time being. This is the week I find stability or the closest I can get to it. The more I awareness I have on the weeks where I jet off into space on an emotional roller coaster, the easier it becomes to ride the waves. I can get through things knowing I will have one week to breathe easier, the calm before the next storm.
yeah what a beautiful feeling, when/if it happens. π
take care
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