Thoughts I Had at Sunset Cliffs

The other day, I walked around Sunset Cliffs and people-watched. Here are some of the thoughts I had while I was there. These people on the rocks were jumping in then somehow getting back up on the rocks. I wouldn’t jump in but I watched in awe from afar at those who felt brave enoughContinue reading “Thoughts I Had at Sunset Cliffs”

Little Things

Talking to chickens like they are people. Asking a neighbor to help deal with a bee. Flinging bees out of a pool, hoping they’re dead. Sitting on the deck with a tea and a book. Cloudy days. Weekends Saturday smoothies. Marks on my cheeks from face masks. FaceTiming with friends. FaceTiming with my cat. FaceTimingContinue reading “Little Things”

Eyes On Fire

I wear sunglasses at night it’s too early to go to sleep my eyes are on fire and there’s nothing I can do. I’ve learned frustration only leads to defeat and I won’t feel bad about something I have no control over. I sit on the bed with the lights off waiting for my eyesContinue reading “Eyes On Fire”

Sun Tired

The sun has zapped all of my energy. I’m a shell of a human being. Where did I go? To sleep in my thoughts while my body leans against a couch, staring at nothing in particular, wondering what time it is with no way to check. Only the simple questions remain, emotions have been drainedContinue reading “Sun Tired”

Both Things Can Be True

For so many years, I lived in fear of what other people have to say. I was always afraid of what could happen if I spoke my truth. If I shared something, what would people think? What would they say? What would the inevitable response be? Recently, I realized it doesn’t matter what other peopleContinue reading “Both Things Can Be True”

Summer

I love how summer returns you to yourself – Alex Dimitrov Summer is approaching. The warm air has returned. I’m happy taking photos of flowers and staying outside for hours. This is when I can breathe without worrying about my lungs freezing. I pay attention while getting lost in my thoughts, it’s a balancing actContinue reading “Summer”

Self-Love

Noun. I’m no longer willing to sit in my past watching everything I did wrong pass by me. Instead of feeling shame, I’m choosing love. It’s a choice that has to be made often but it gets easier the more I’m aware of how I’m talking to myself. I’m choosing to give myself love byContinue reading “Self-Love”

Anxious

Adjective. It’s like spinning around the room, unsure of what led you here. You were fine and now you’re filled with overwhelming thoughts. Time and therapy has taught you to breathe, controlling the anxious feeling isn’t easy. Sometimes it’s doable, sometimes you just have to wait for it to get bored and move onto otherContinue reading “Anxious”

Happy

Adjective. The feeling when you can’t stop smiling. Where everything becomes lighter and you run around the house shaking and yelling because of unexpected good news. The feeling of magic, keeping a secret to process yourself only leaves you giddier. Feeling like you can explode from joy at any moment. Being reassured that the pathContinue reading “Happy”