Looking Away

You know what makes me happy? Choosing not to drown myself in current events. At the beginning of all this, I was obsessed with Knowing all the latest information. I also had more physical anxiety than I had experienced in several years. My mental health is better when I look away. Nowadays, I see andContinue reading “Looking Away”

Peaks + Valleys

In these times, we’re experiencing the peaks and valleys of life in a condensed period. Emotions are higher with people being more vulnerable and more fearful of what could happen. While others are bored out of their minds and want anything to do, including breaking the orders that are in place. We are inside forContinue reading “Peaks + Valleys”

Comfort

I find comfort in writing. It used to be the opposite. I used to be scared to write things down. Because writing things down makes them real. But now I have found there’s a comfort in placing my thoughts down on the page instead of having them consume my brain. If I can let goContinue reading “Comfort”

How I Stay Sane

Inspired by #IKeepMyselfSaneBy on Twitter. I limit how much news I watch and read. I write every day. I drink water. I read books. I go for walks with my dog. I hang out with my cat. I FaceTime with friends. I do yoga. I go the therapy. I meditate a lot. I color inContinue reading “How I Stay Sane”

Simmering Frustration with Compassion

I’m walking down a trail, the concrete is hard beneath my feet. I feel my legs moving me forward. I cross back and forth from the sidewalk to grass, grass to sidewalk, sidewalk back to grass, then back to the sidewalk, when I pass by people. I’ve realized most walk in clusters, uncertain of whatContinue reading “Simmering Frustration with Compassion”

Part Three

I’ve been doing a lot of walking on the trails by my house lately. I began early last week when I decided to stop going to the gym. The trails weren’t too crowded then. I walked Monday thru Thursday then took a few days off because of the weather. This week, I have never seenContinue reading “Part Three”

Settle into the Moment

I’m surrounded by people. I do not speak. I half-listen as my mind bounces around from one thought to another.  I catch words here and there. I clap and don’t realize I’m clapping. Awareness allows me to settle into the moment.  It takes several tries and I’m still not sure I got it. I checkContinue reading “Settle into the Moment”

Turn Off

The tv is too loud, screaming news overwhelmingly bleak. So I leave it off and turn to books and podcasts. I turn off my phone for hours at a time. I turn off social media and embrace the quiet. I lie down with a pillow over my eyes, listening to a story. I sit byContinue reading “Turn Off”

healing

breathe in breathe out through the belly close my eyes focus on nothing calm the mind stop overthinking i’m healing my body is doing what it’s supposed to do things are improving round up my distractions they no longer serve me their familiarity isn’t comforting like breathing is in and out in and out distractionsContinue reading “healing”

My Body Remembers

My body remembers feeling the pain. I wasn’t supposed to feel pain. And yet, it’s ingrained in my body. Something went wrong. Nothing’s wrong now. And yet, I’m crying. The fear my body holds is visceral. My brain tries to calm me down. It does not work. I keep crying, I breathe. I panic. IContinue reading “My Body Remembers”