Nightmare

In my dream, I’m in the bed I’m sleeping in. I can’t move. I try to roll but I can’t. It feels like gravity has pinned me to the mattress. Lying on my back, head looking turned right, arms at my side, I hear a sound coming. It’s the sound of chaos, it sounds likeContinue reading “Nightmare”

What Would Joan Didion Do?

“I write entirely to find out what I’m thinking, what I’m looking at, what I see and what it means. What I want and what I fear.”   Joan Didion When I read on Twitter last Thursday that Joan Didion had died, I was shocked. I kept on thinking, Joan Didion is dead. I don’t know whyContinue reading “What Would Joan Didion Do?”

End of the Year Observations

The noise that overtook my thoughts slowly faded into a gentle silence. The cat purred in my presence as he drifted off into dreams. Christmas lights hung from the trees lit up the warm winter nights. One text distracted me from my anxiety. Anticipation for a moment was worse than the moment itself. We’re almostContinue reading “End of the Year Observations”

Reading By The Lake

Late September, early fall, crisp in the air. Center Pond, Maine, late-afternoon. I sit by the lake with a jacket and boots on, kindle in my hand. The leaves across the way are changing. The slight breeze in the air drops the temperature, but the sun blaring in my eyes allows some warmth to stay.Continue reading “Reading By The Lake”

Quiet Plane Ride

I never realized how quiet plane rides are until recently. I took an early morning flight last Saturday. The plane wasn’t full. All the passengers were told to spread out. I sat by a window and pulled down the shade. A woman sat by the aisle, leaving the middle seat free. I spent the twoContinue reading “Quiet Plane Ride”

Thoughts I Had at Sunset Cliffs

The other day, I walked around Sunset Cliffs and people-watched. Here are some of the thoughts I had while I was there. These people on the rocks were jumping in then somehow getting back up on the rocks. I wouldn’t jump in but I watched in awe from afar at those who felt brave enoughContinue reading “Thoughts I Had at Sunset Cliffs”

What I’ve Been Clicking On – Part 9

New Yorker – Sally Rooney on Labor and Desire This tweet from Sparknotes that transported me back to English class in high school. Demi Lovato’s interview with Jojo Siwa Kate Beckinsale’s conversation on Armchair Expert Good Trade – I Just Need To Stop Saying “Just”…Right? This adorable photo of a kitten. Ashley C. Ford’s PowerfulContinue reading “What I’ve Been Clicking On – Part 9”

Eyes On Fire

I wear sunglasses at night it’s too early to go to sleep my eyes are on fire and there’s nothing I can do. I’ve learned frustration only leads to defeat and I won’t feel bad about something I have no control over. I sit on the bed with the lights off waiting for my eyesContinue reading “Eyes On Fire”

Both Things Can Be True

For so many years, I lived in fear of what other people have to say. I was always afraid of what could happen if I spoke my truth. If I shared something, what would people think? What would they say? What would the inevitable response be? Recently, I realized it doesn’t matter what other peopleContinue reading “Both Things Can Be True”

Mikey And Me

Sitting in the shade with Mikey on the back deck. I’m reading a book, he’s under my legs. He looks so peaceful drifting in and out of sleep. I sip my chai latte and watch pollen float through the air. One lands on my cat, another lands on my dress. I cover my cup toContinue reading “Mikey And Me”