my body aches in places I don't usually feel in trying to adjust for my ankle to heal, I become aware of the toll my body takes in the process. my shins get the brunt of bruising, trying to sit while working leads to bumping into shelves and solid structures finding comfort for my left side causes a trail of marks on my right side. my hips hurt from leaning on one side, making sure the swelling isn't bad is fills me with worry and panic. I call people by their wrong names and repeat myself over and over, my thoughts have succumbed to the worst case scenario. I listen to my ankle, I ice, elevate, and take ibuprofen as needed. It doesn't swell or bruise like I feared. It slowly heals on the days I can rest on the couch or in my bed. in these moments, I am reminded I am not in control and I still have a lot to learn.