Self-Talk

The way we talk to ourselves reflects how we view ourselves. We often do it without thinking, the little comments that fall out of our mouths whispered under our breath are quickly forgotten as we move from one moment to the next swept up by the busyness of the day. Only when we become awareContinue reading “Self-Talk”

this time of year

I try to remember to breathe not to let these moments slip past me. Not overeating at dinner because I know the leftovers will be just as good if not better. Having memorable conversations, remembering that everyone is going through their own things and feelings are valid, including my own. The older I get, theContinue reading “this time of year”

wordless day

I stayed in the mountains spent some time by myself to read and write and relax silence scared me or so I thought pushing back the noise of every day life to embrace to silence of a still room made me uncomfortable at first I finished a few books and scribbled down a couple ofContinue reading “wordless day”

adjusting

my body aches in places I don’t usually feel in trying to adjust for my ankle to heal, I become aware of the toll my body takes in the process. my shins get the brunt of bruising, trying to sit while working leads to bumping into shelves and solid structures finding comfort for my leftContinue reading “adjusting”

mindfulness

a state of awareness brought on by breathing my skin is red from the heat of this bath I massage my neck with my finger tips and slip into nothingness, happy I watch my thoughts drift away I move the water around me I breathe in through my belly I hold my breath I releaseContinue reading “mindfulness”

Lost Dog

Nights spent waiting for the dog to bark again. He’s lost his center to the dark. I wake up at two three four in the morning and try to get him to calm down. For someone with anxiety, I don’t do a good job at comforting him. I’m short with him, I yell, I getContinue reading “Lost Dog”

It’s Been A Minute

The seasons have changed once again somehow I’ve missed it. I didn’t enjoy the autumn leaves like I normally do. And winter…well, winter came and went, the lack of snowstorms made time move faster than the average year. I can tell it’s spring by my stuffy nose and puffy eyes, I always forget I haveContinue reading “It’s Been A Minute”

End of the Year Observations

The noise that overtook my thoughts slowly faded into a gentle silence. The cat purred in my presence as he drifted off into dreams. Christmas lights hung from the trees lit up the warm winter nights. One text distracted me from my anxiety. Anticipation for a moment was worse than the moment itself. We’re almostContinue reading “End of the Year Observations”

Thoughts I Had at Sunset Cliffs

The other day, I walked around Sunset Cliffs and people-watched. Here are some of the thoughts I had while I was there. These people on the rocks were jumping in then somehow getting back up on the rocks. I wouldn’t jump in but I watched in awe from afar at those who felt brave enoughContinue reading “Thoughts I Had at Sunset Cliffs”