adjusting

my body aches in places I don’t usually feel in trying to adjust for my ankle to heal, I become aware of the toll my body takes in the process. my shins get the brunt of bruising, trying to sit while working leads to bumping into shelves and solid structures finding comfort for my leftContinue reading “adjusting”

mindfulness

a state of awareness brought on by breathing my skin is red from the heat of this bath I massage my neck with my finger tips and slip into nothingness, happy I watch my thoughts drift away I move the water around me I breathe in through my belly I hold my breath I releaseContinue reading “mindfulness”

Lost Dog

Nights spent waiting for the dog to bark again. He’s lost his center to the dark. I wake up at two three four in the morning and try to get him to calm down. For someone with anxiety, I don’t do a good job at comforting him. I’m short with him, I yell, I getContinue reading “Lost Dog”

It’s Been A Minute

The seasons have changed once again somehow I’ve missed it. I didn’t enjoy the autumn leaves like I normally do. And winter…well, winter came and went, the lack of snowstorms made time move faster than the average year. I can tell it’s spring by my stuffy nose and puffy eyes, I always forget I haveContinue reading “It’s Been A Minute”

End of the Year Observations

The noise that overtook my thoughts slowly faded into a gentle silence. The cat purred in my presence as he drifted off into dreams. Christmas lights hung from the trees lit up the warm winter nights. One text distracted me from my anxiety. Anticipation for a moment was worse than the moment itself. We’re almostContinue reading “End of the Year Observations”

Thoughts I Had at Sunset Cliffs

The other day, I walked around Sunset Cliffs and people-watched. Here are some of the thoughts I had while I was there. These people on the rocks were jumping in then somehow getting back up on the rocks. I wouldn’t jump in but I watched in awe from afar at those who felt brave enoughContinue reading “Thoughts I Had at Sunset Cliffs”

Both Things Can Be True

For so many years, I lived in fear of what other people have to say. I was always afraid of what could happen if I spoke my truth. If I shared something, what would people think? What would they say? What would the inevitable response be? Recently, I realized it doesn’t matter what other peopleContinue reading “Both Things Can Be True”

What I’ve Been Clicking On – Part 4

“Alison, can you explain what Internet is?” This donkey is reunited with the girl who raised it. Kristen Radtke Considers Another American Epidemic: Loneliness This Bodega Cat This Is Us in Chronological Order A tweet that made me laugh. Ariana Grande’s Beautiful Wedding Your Friend Doesn’t Want the Vaccine. What Do You Say? Tidbits fromContinue reading “What I’ve Been Clicking On – Part 4”

Self-Love

Noun. I’m no longer willing to sit in my past watching everything I did wrong pass by me. Instead of feeling shame, I’m choosing love. It’s a choice that has to be made often but it gets easier the more I’m aware of how I’m talking to myself. I’m choosing to give myself love byContinue reading “Self-Love”