Toothache

Lower left side of my mouth,

right if I’m staring into a mirror.

 

It’s all in my head,

it only aches when I’m out of ideas.

 

When I’m writing, reading, watching tv, or eating,

there’s no pain.

 

None.

As if I’m in a bad dream.

 

But I’m awake because I can feel

my teeth clenching.

 

Weirdest sensation.

As if it’s telling me to be productive

 

instead of wasting the day

procrastinating.

Breaking the Connection

I pass by a window where color is fading from

the sky in the west. I glance at the view but don’t stop.

The shift from day to night happens twice every day.

Somedays I’m more interested in the sunset.

Tonight, I’m not.  My mind has me lost in other things.

Thoughts constantly being questioned and rewritten

a hundred different ways. I’m always working

on something. These mundane moments clutter

my days. I’m more aware of what I do to distract

myself. These distractions can be obsessive.

I’m trying to change my bad habits.

Limiting my time on social media.

Blocking sites for a certain amount of time.

Leaving my phone in another room.

Allowing myself distance to create new thoughts.

Thoughts that don’t revolve around current events.

Where I can create a moment in my head that

I will forget before I can write it down. Letting myself

wander without any restrictions gives me the freedom

to narrate my thoughts without thinking about what’s next.