Part Three

I’ve been doing a lot of walking on the trails by my house lately. I began early last week when I decided to stop going to the gym. The trails weren’t too crowded then. I walked Monday thru Thursday then took a few days off because of the weather. This week, I have never seenContinue reading “Part Three”

Settle into the Moment

I’m surrounded by people. I do not speak. I half-listen as my mind bounces around from one thought to another.  I catch words here and there. I clap and don’t realize I’m clapping. Awareness allows me to settle into the moment.  It takes several tries and I’m still not sure I got it. I checkContinue reading “Settle into the Moment”

Turn Off

The tv is too loud, screaming news overwhelmingly bleak. So I leave it off and turn to books and podcasts. I turn off my phone for hours at a time. I turn off social media and embrace the quiet. I lie down with a pillow over my eyes, listening to a story. I sit byContinue reading “Turn Off”

healing

breathe in breathe out through the belly close my eyes focus on nothing calm the mind stop overthinking i’m healing my body is doing what it’s supposed to do things are improving round up my distractions they no longer serve me their familiarity isn’t comforting like breathing is in and out in and out distractionsContinue reading “healing”

My Body Remembers

My body remembers feeling the pain. I wasn’t supposed to feel pain. And yet, it’s ingrained in my body. Something went wrong. Nothing’s wrong now. And yet, I’m crying. The fear my body holds is visceral. My brain tries to calm me down. It does not work. I keep crying, I breathe. I panic. IContinue reading “My Body Remembers”

Quiet Mind

I sit in a room with my legs crossed and my hands on my knees. I’m focused on my breath, trying hard to ignore my racing thoughts. The music is relaxing and the yoga teacher is the only one who is speaking. Her presence is calming and trusting. I feel safe. I’m trying to getContinue reading “Quiet Mind”

Beginning of a New Decade – A Macro Perspective

I watch this country grapple with staggering events by joking and sharing memes as another country’s trying to gain control of powerful flames. Because that’s how difficult stuff is dealt with, creating light to process the heavy weight. I don’t have answers, I barely have questions. I hope everything will be okay. I’m just notContinue reading “Beginning of a New Decade – A Macro Perspective”

The Importance of Healing

When the body is in pain, all you can do is listen. Listen to what your body is telling you. Slowing down helps the body recover. It’s not always easy or fun but it’s important to be patient with your body in the midst of pain and do what you can to help yourself heal.

Brain Reset

It feels like her brain constantly resets. That’s the best way I can understand it. To watch the ones you love become different people is disheartening. It’s the disease they have that causes them to revert to children or toddlersdepending on how bad it is.You love them but it’s difficult to watch. It’s difficult toContinue reading “Brain Reset”

Disappeared

It’s clear to me that seasons no longer exist. They only exist as dates on a calendar, marking the passage of time. The rest has faded away to a time and place the planet no longer knows. We’ve had at least five major snow storms in the last two months. It’s autumn, where leaves areContinue reading “Disappeared”