end of june blues

the end of pride month grief lingers heavy in the summer air I cannot properly put into words how I am feeling still in the midst of processing the weight of the fact that women in this country are not allowed to choose what’s best for their bodies

Tired

How many kids have to die in school in order for change to happen? I am tired of seeing the same news cycle trying to in-act some type of change but nothing works. Nothing works. Why? Why do these events keep occurring and we’re left hopeless? Why do parents keep on losing their kids thisContinue reading “Tired”

hope

Last year at this time, uncertainty lingered heavy. There were too many unknowns, with people getting sick and many dying, no one knew what was going on. Wearing masks was a figment of an idea, nowhere near mandatory, people were stuck in their homes, too stressed to pick up their dog’s poop on their walks,Continue reading “hope”

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Ice cold air, sliding doors frozen shut, inhales that burn your lungs, shivers that last for days. Single digit temperatures transition into the negatives during the night last until morning. It’s too cold, too too cold. Too cold to do anything outside. The day’s activities consist of sitting by the fire, hiding under blankets, workingContinue reading “0”

Details

The light looks different When the sun disappears early Behind gray winter clouds. There’s a feeling with how Vivid the earth looks. It’s a particular sight That makes me think The day is transitioning Into night an hour before The sun is supposed to set. A bare Christmas tree Waits to be hauled away. ChristmasContinue reading “Details”

Keep The Peace

I bite my tongue to not make a remark I will regret. I taste blood without feeling the pain of the pinch. It will heal, forming a scar on my tongue I will never see. Keep the peace. Keep the peace. Keep the peace. It’s the only mantra that keeps me sane. You confuse respectContinue reading “Keep The Peace”

Grateful

The morning began with stillness. I watched as the sun rose over the horizon and filtered through the trees, still half asleep. My mother’s childhood bedroom, flower wallpaper, a quilt on the chair in the corner, two small vases on the window sill. I’d wake up most mornings I slept here and watched this viewContinue reading “Grateful”

An Ode to Double Vision

Ten months without you vanishes with your unexpected return in late July. I liked you better when you lived in my memories. You came barging in without warning. Your presence is most obvious morning and night. I don’t know what you expect me to say, I literally cannot see because of you. I cannot readContinue reading “An Ode to Double Vision”

Allergic to the Heat

Remember when I raved about going on walks every day? I laugh when I read those poems back now. Walking in spring is a delight, the weather is still slightly cool at all hours of the day. Walking in summer is hell, the heat feels like walking in an oven. There’s a small window inContinue reading “Allergic to the Heat”

A Healthy Balance

I’m not used to having my anxiety come from external forces for an extended amount of time, especially at this magnitude. I’ve spent the last week in my head, trying to avoid the news as much as possible. I have gravitated towards good news, positive quotes, and tv shows while locking my feelings in aContinue reading “A Healthy Balance”