Look at the Green Grass

You choose to look at the dead field instead of the green grass.Why?The cliché phrase is true, you know?The grass is greener on the other side.Someone may tell you to look at the field. The green one, not the one with no life.You won’t look at it until someone tells you.But then you look atContinue reading “Look at the Green Grass”

The Case of Misunderstanding

The intention of the message is lost, causing both sides to bicker and banter. Perspective impacts opinion and causes emotions to cloud one’s judgment. Person one says something to person two. Person two takes what person one said to heart and accuses person one of meaning something they didn’t because the communication wasn’t clear. ThisContinue reading “The Case of Misunderstanding”

Before I Had the Language

Before I had the language to understand and articulate, I just had the feeling. I was twelve, sitting in my sixth-grade classroom, looking down at what I had written. These words seem to have come out of nowhere, like magic. I looked around the room and realized no one could tell how I was feeling.Continue reading “Before I Had the Language”

Winter Arrived in October

I watch the snowfall for a third time this month.I can’t remember the last time it snowed three times before Halloween.But here I am, watching it float down once more.It stopped snowing in late May,only to return in early October.Is this just a weird year?The new normal?A sign of how climate change has impacted theContinue reading “Winter Arrived in October”

Close Focus

Lately, my eyes have been focusing differently.Whenever anything is near my eyes, ie a book or phone screen, my eyes will innately focus on that one thing while everything beyond what I’m focusing on blurs. It’s like focusing in portrait mode, the background becomes fuzzy while the words I’m reading become better than crystal clear.ThisContinue reading “Close Focus”

The Power of Mindful Breathing

I have found comfort in my breath. Inhaling and exhaling are often done without thought. The body knows how to breathe without the mind getting involved. But there is something about getting my mind involved with my breathing that has helped calm my thoughts and body. Learning how to belly breathe can change the body’s way ofContinue reading “The Power of Mindful Breathing”

Saturday Drive

I go on a drive looking for my old self.I listen to old music and sing along. Dixie Chicks and Bob Dylan,Songs from my childhood that have bled into my young adult years.The leaves have barely changedAs the season of summer is about to leave for the year.Saturday, 79 degrees, and endless blue skiesGuide myContinue reading “Saturday Drive”

No Fireworks in September

A single sound shoots through the summer night. It’s loud and fast and gone before I can comprehend what is happening. There are no rippling sounds that fade into the darkness. No colors flying across the sky. No screams for help. As I’m writing this on a Sunday afternoon, I’ve only heard this sound twice,Continue reading “No Fireworks in September”

One Year with Abnormally Puffy Eyes

I was in a McDonald’s bathroom somewhere in Iowa.I was exhausted from a weekend full of family time and walking around the Minnesota State Fair.My dad and I had left a few hours before dawn and began the long drive back home.As soon as we got on the road, I instantly fell back asleep, holdingContinue reading “One Year with Abnormally Puffy Eyes”

II

There’s a split in my reality  every morning and night.  When what I see doubles  into this hallucination like state,  my brain is confused. My eyes  don’t work together for longer than  twelve hours a day. Individually, they’re fine. Left is down  and right is up. If I cover one,  my vision is single andContinue reading “II”