Part Two

Because we are living in uncertain times, I thought maybe it would be a good idea to blog. I don’t know if it will be every day, every other day, or every few days. But, I want to share information and stories with you I think are important, along with some positivity. The blog postContinue reading “Part Two”

Life’s Going to Change

I’m a young woman with lung disease and a thyroid autoimmune disease.I was born three months early.A ventilator helped my under-developed lungs breathe for the first six weeks of my life.I was on oxygen for the first 2 1/2 years of my life.I’ve been on oxygen a couple of times since.I take an inhaler twiceContinue reading “Life’s Going to Change”

Beach Day

The sun reflects off the sand and the water, Causing reality to brighten passed the point of comfort. This moment is now blinded by light, As many people continue on with their time. How is everyone not impacted by this brightness? She thinks as she puts her phone back in her bag. Exchanging her phoneContinue reading “Beach Day”

Mantra for the Madness

The sounds of a cold echo between buildings. He ignores the coughing and sneezing, Turning up the volume on his headphones, Blasting a rock song into his brain. Everyone’s worried for no reason. That’s his mantra for the madness. He walks into a bar as rain begins to fall. There are people gathered together inContinue reading “Mantra for the Madness”

Change in Vision

Once again, I’m dealing with a shift of something I cannot control. My eyes are at the mercy of time and decrease swelling. This last week, I’ve noticed an increase of in double vision. In looking at my phone or reading a book, words split suddenly. This morning, I woke up to a reality hoveringContinue reading “Change in Vision”

Settle into the Moment

I’m surrounded by people. I do not speak. I half-listen as my mind bounces around from one thought to another.  I catch words here and there. I clap and don’t realize I’m clapping. Awareness allows me to settle into the moment.  It takes several tries and I’m still not sure I got it. I checkContinue reading “Settle into the Moment”

Turn Off

The tv is too loud, screaming news overwhelmingly bleak. So I leave it off and turn to books and podcasts. I turn off my phone for hours at a time. I turn off social media and embrace the quiet. I lie down with a pillow over my eyes, listening to a story. I sit byContinue reading “Turn Off”

healing

breathe in breathe out through the belly close my eyes focus on nothing calm the mind stop overthinking i’m healing my body is doing what it’s supposed to do things are improving round up my distractions they no longer serve me their familiarity isn’t comforting like breathing is in and out in and out distractionsContinue reading “healing”

My Body Remembers

My body remembers feeling the pain. I wasn’t supposed to feel pain. And yet, it’s ingrained in my body. Something went wrong. Nothing’s wrong now. And yet, I’m crying. The fear my body holds is visceral. My brain tries to calm me down. It does not work. I keep crying, I breathe. I panic. IContinue reading “My Body Remembers”

When Time Slowed Down

When I was a child, time moved slowly. I’d go out front and climb the tree that was in our yard. I felt like I was out there for hours when it was probably about thirty minutes. I was present. I wasn’t distracting myself with my own thoughts. I wasn’t worried about what I hadContinue reading “When Time Slowed Down”