My Body Remembers

My body remembers feeling the pain. I wasn’t supposed to feel pain. And yet, it’s ingrained in my body. Something went wrong. Nothing’s wrong now. And yet, I’m crying. The fear my body holds is visceral. My brain tries to calm me down. It does not work. I keep crying, I breathe. I panic. IContinue reading “My Body Remembers”

Quiet Mind

I sit in a room with my legs crossed and my hands on my knees. I’m focused on my breath, trying hard to ignore my racing thoughts. The music is relaxing and the yoga teacher is the only one who is speaking. Her presence is calming and trusting. I feel safe. I’m trying to getContinue reading “Quiet Mind”

#MeToo, One Year Later

One year ago, I was in a hotel room in New York City, about to leave and take the N train from 42nd street to 23rd street to see the Flatiron building, when I got a notification on my phone from CNN. There was a breaking story on Harvey Weinstein in the New Yorker. TheContinue reading “#MeToo, One Year Later”

945 Miles

Nebraska feels longer than Iowa and Iowa felt like forever while I was fast asleep. I watch the miles drop as I fly by green signs on the highway traveling west. Listening to a podcast, my father sleeping in the passenger seat, I wonder how long it will take until I see something new. GreenContinue reading “945 Miles”

My Essay Is Now Published!!

I won’t be posting a review today. Instead, I have some very exciting news. One of my essays is published!! I wrote this essay for a class in the spring of 2017. It’s about my journey to beginning to acknowledge my stutter and how that coincided with finding my passion for writing. For almost aContinue reading “My Essay Is Now Published!!”

Tweets from Sunday

August 12th, 2018 6:15 am I love when I’m in a place and my phone isn’t on the forefront of my mind. 6:50 am This is so important for someone like me who seemingly can’t detach from the lure of always needing to be updated on who posted what and when on Instagram. 7:01 amContinue reading “Tweets from Sunday”

You Can’t Box Millennials Together

Like previous generations, millennials contain all different kinds of people. Passionate people. Lazy people. Stupid people. Thinkers. Scientists. Writers. Makers. Creators. Yet people, specifically the media, consistently box us together. I saw a headline a couple of weeks ago about a teacher who said she couldn’t teach millennials because they aren’t willing to learn. ThisContinue reading “You Can’t Box Millennials Together”

New York

I’m writing this post at JFK, waiting to board a flight to Boston. I’m heartbroken to leave this city. Coming here, I didn’t expect to have an ache in my chest as I leave. This city, the people, the art, the culture, the literature, all of it is magic. Yes, it can be smelly. Yes,Continue reading “New York”

AIS: Speak Freely Live Fearlessly

This week at the American Institute for Stuttering has been amazing. I went in with a few ideas of what I wanted to work on and I’m leaving having learned a lot about myself and my stutter with the tools to navigate this lifelong journey of stuttering. I learned little things I have known about myself butContinue reading “AIS: Speak Freely Live Fearlessly”

Internet Trolls & Hateful Critiques

Last week, I watched a live stream on Instagram. A teenage girl named Lilia Buckingham was crying because of the hate she received after tweeting how she’s worried about writing a screenplay because she doesn’t know how she would fund the movie. People came after her for tweeting this because from how it looks throughContinue reading “Internet Trolls & Hateful Critiques”