Crazy Dreams, Quiet Neighborhoods, & Migraines

Have you’ve been having crazy dreams lately? I noticed I’ve had an increase in nightmares a few nights ago. Weird dreams that bring out my worst fears. Such as being left by someone I’m close or hiding from someone who doesn’t have good intentions. I’ve only woken up once this week and felt shaken byContinue reading “Crazy Dreams, Quiet Neighborhoods, & Migraines”

How I Stay Sane

Inspired by #IKeepMyselfSaneBy on Twitter. I limit how much news I watch and read. I write every day. I drink water. I read books. I go for walks with my dog. I hang out with my cat. I FaceTime with friends. I do yoga. I go the therapy. I meditate a lot. I color inContinue reading “How I Stay Sane”

Simmering Frustration with Compassion

I’m walking down a trail, the concrete is hard beneath my feet. I feel my legs moving me forward. I cross back and forth from the sidewalk to grass, grass to sidewalk, sidewalk back to grass, then back to the sidewalk, when I pass by people. I’ve realized most walk in clusters, uncertain of whatContinue reading “Simmering Frustration with Compassion”

20 Things I Learned from 200 Days of Meditation

Some days I’m more focused than others. Meditating at the same time every day is ideal. Self-judgment only makes things worse. How many times I come back to the breath is more important than how many times I linger away. I can go for more than ten minutes without needing to look at my phone.Continue reading “20 Things I Learned from 200 Days of Meditation”

A Healthy Balance

I’m not used to having my anxiety come from external forces for an extended amount of time, especially at this magnitude. I’ve spent the last week in my head, trying to avoid the news as much as possible. I have gravitated towards good news, positive quotes, and tv shows while locking my feelings in aContinue reading “A Healthy Balance”

Stay Home Poem

We sit at home and wait to know that it’s safe. We don’t know when that will be. Weeks, months, it’s all up in the air. I go for a drive to relieve stress. The snow reflects off the mountains. People are outside walking. That’s all they can do these days. People in clusters. PeopleContinue reading “Stay Home Poem”

Part Four

Today is World Poetry Day. Poetry is so important, especially for this uncertain moment we’re currently living in. A few weeks ago, I posted a poem called Mantra for the Madness. It contains a lot of the fears and anxieties I had about what could happen. Flash forward two weeks and our society has completelyContinue reading “Part Four”

Part Three

I’ve been doing a lot of walking on the trails by my house lately. I began early last week when I decided to stop going to the gym. The trails weren’t too crowded then. I walked Monday thru Thursday then took a few days off because of the weather. This week, I have never seenContinue reading “Part Three”

Life’s Going to Change

I’m a young woman with lung disease and a thyroid autoimmune disease.I was born three months early.A ventilator helped my under-developed lungs breathe for the first six weeks of my life.I was on oxygen for the first 2 1/2 years of my life.I’ve been on oxygen a couple of times since.I take an inhaler twiceContinue reading “Life’s Going to Change”

Change in Vision

Once again, I’m dealing with a shift of something I cannot control. My eyes are at the mercy of time and decrease swelling. This last week, I’ve noticed an increase of in double vision. In looking at my phone or reading a book, words split suddenly. This morning, I woke up to a reality hoveringContinue reading “Change in Vision”