End of the Year Observations

The noise that overtook my thoughts slowly faded into a gentle silence. The cat purred in my presence as he drifted off into dreams. Christmas lights hung from the trees lit up the warm winter nights. One text distracted me from my anxiety. Anticipation for a moment was worse than the moment itself. We’re almostContinue reading “End of the Year Observations”

Up The Hill

I ran up the hill before the others could follow. I held onto the leash connected to my dog. He kept me going. It’s the only way I could get up without feeling the air escape from my lungs. It gave me time to move forward without thinking. We passed families carrying down Christmas trees,Continue reading “Up The Hill”

A Writer’s Problem

I was busy focusing on my work when an idea leaped into my head. It was a line for a possible poem. I began to daydream of all the lines that would come after. When I realized I wasn’t in a place where I could write it down, I told myself I’d remember it laterContinue reading “A Writer’s Problem”

Trip to Greenville

A few weeks ago, I took a day trip with my aunt and uncle up to Greenville, Maine. We drove around and had lunch near the lake at a place called the Stress Free Moose. We entered the restaurant and the bar was packed with people. On a Tuesday afternoon! We ate outside and people-watchedContinue reading “Trip to Greenville”

Play in My Head

The sun sets behind the mountains. Blue clouds linger before fading into the darkness. The house across the street has its lights on. It doesn’t look real. It looks like a house on a stage or on a set of a show. I see no people in the windows, maybe that’s why it looks outContinue reading “Play in My Head”

Little Things

Talking to chickens like they are people. Asking a neighbor to help deal with a bee. Flinging bees out of a pool, hoping they’re dead. Sitting on the deck with a tea and a book. Cloudy days. Weekends Saturday smoothies. Marks on my cheeks from face masks. FaceTiming with friends. FaceTiming with my cat. FaceTimingContinue reading “Little Things”

Eyes On Fire

I wear sunglasses at night it’s too early to go to sleep my eyes are on fire and there’s nothing I can do. I’ve learned frustration only leads to defeat and I won’t feel bad about something I have no control over. I sit on the bed with the lights off waiting for my eyesContinue reading “Eyes On Fire”

Both Things Can Be True

For so many years, I lived in fear of what other people have to say. I was always afraid of what could happen if I spoke my truth. If I shared something, what would people think? What would they say? What would the inevitable response be? Recently, I realized it doesn’t matter what other peopleContinue reading “Both Things Can Be True”

Mikey And Me

Sitting in the shade with Mikey on the back deck. I’m reading a book, he’s under my legs. He looks so peaceful drifting in and out of sleep. I sip my chai latte and watch pollen float through the air. One lands on my cat, another lands on my dress. I cover my cup toContinue reading “Mikey And Me”

Summer

I love how summer returns you to yourself – Alex Dimitrov Summer is approaching. The warm air has returned. I’m happy taking photos of flowers and staying outside for hours. This is when I can breathe without worrying about my lungs freezing. I pay attention while getting lost in my thoughts, it’s a balancing actContinue reading “Summer”