This Too Shall Pass – Poem & Short Film

I have held on tightly to little things during this time. Walking my dog then watching him roll around in the grass right before we go inside. Finding my cats soaking up the sunshine in the mornings. Reading when my mind will allow me to focus on the words written on the page. Writing myContinue reading “This Too Shall Pass – Poem & Short Film”

My Body Remembers

My body remembers feeling the pain. I wasn’t supposed to feel pain. And yet, it’s ingrained in my body. Something went wrong. Nothing’s wrong now. And yet, I’m crying. The fear my body holds is visceral. My brain tries to calm me down. It does not work. I keep crying, I breathe. I panic. IContinue reading “My Body Remembers”

The Best Christmas Gift

Thirteen years ago today, my parents took me to PetSmart after speech therapy to look at the cats. We had gotten a cat earlier in the year who turned out to be kind of a dud. She was sweet but full of nerves (still is). Little did I know, my parents had been to PetSmartContinue reading “The Best Christmas Gift”

Brain Reset

It feels like her brain constantly resets. That’s the best way I can understand it. To watch the ones you love become different people is disheartening. It’s the disease they have that causes them to revert to children or toddlersdepending on how bad it is.You love them but it’s difficult to watch. It’s difficult toContinue reading “Brain Reset”

Before I Had the Language

Before I had the language to understand and articulate, I just had the feeling. I was twelve, sitting in my sixth-grade classroom, looking down at what I had written. These words seem to have come out of nowhere, like magic. I looked around the room and realized no one could tell how I was feeling.Continue reading “Before I Had the Language”

Saturday Drive

I go on a drive looking for my old self.I listen to old music and sing along. Dixie Chicks and Bob Dylan,Songs from my childhood that have bled into my young adult years.The leaves have barely changedAs the season of summer is about to leave for the year.Saturday, 79 degrees, and endless blue skiesGuide myContinue reading “Saturday Drive”