For Mikey

you were a cat who was always involved, who wasn’t afraid of anything. time took away your fearlessness but your personality remained strong as ever until the very end. you were a cat who demanded to be heard, you meowed like an old man who smoked too many cigarettes, i swear you were a smokerContinue reading “For Mikey”

Mountain Rollercoaster

I don’t like rollercoasters. I don’t seek them out, I don’t ride them, they’re not my thing. So how did I end up riding a rollercoaster through the trees at Copper Mountain? About a month ago, I saw a TikTok. Things you can do in CO! Hidden gems as one might say. I sent itContinue reading “Mountain Rollercoaster”

Second Month of 2022

The shortest month of the year has felt like the longest month in history. Okay, not in history but how are we still in only the second month of the year?? It’s been almost two years of this pandemic and it feels like a decade has gone by. This was supposed to be the roaringContinue reading “Second Month of 2022”

Overlook

from 2019 I climbed up a mountain to see the leaves. It was a gradual incline over sixty minutes, I don’t know how high I got, But the view took me to another planet. Wide open land between mountains, Empty roads with no end in sight. I was in awe of this view, I hadContinue reading “Overlook”

Nightmare

In my dream, I’m in the bed I’m sleeping in. I can’t move. I try to roll but I can’t. It feels like gravity has pinned me to the mattress. Lying on my back, head looking turned right, arms at my side, I hear a sound coming. It’s the sound of chaos, it sounds likeContinue reading “Nightmare”

January Walk

From 2021 The ice cold wind gives me no favors. It burns my lungs the way I imagine a cigarette would. It feels like knives are cutting off my airways when I try to inhale. In these moments I feel my incapabilities fully. The pain from the air shoots through my chest as I tryContinue reading “January Walk”

What Would Joan Didion Do?

“I write entirely to find out what I’m thinking, what I’m looking at, what I see and what it means. What I want and what I fear.”   Joan Didion When I read on Twitter last Thursday that Joan Didion had died, I was shocked. I kept on thinking, Joan Didion is dead. I don’t know whyContinue reading “What Would Joan Didion Do?”

End of the Year Observations

The noise that overtook my thoughts slowly faded into a gentle silence. The cat purred in my presence as he drifted off into dreams. Christmas lights hung from the trees lit up the warm winter nights. One text distracted me from my anxiety. Anticipation for a moment was worse than the moment itself. We’re almostContinue reading “End of the Year Observations”

Up The Hill

I ran up the hill before the others could follow. I held onto the leash connected to my dog. He kept me going. It’s the only way I could get up without feeling the air escape from my lungs. It gave me time to move forward without thinking. We passed families carrying down Christmas trees,Continue reading “Up The Hill”

A Writer’s Problem

I was busy focusing on my work when an idea leaped into my head. It was a line for a possible poem. I began to daydream of all the lines that would come after. When I realized I wasn’t in a place where I could write it down, I told myself I’d remember it laterContinue reading “A Writer’s Problem”