What I’ve Been Clicking On – Part 7

Bonus – A random tweet I sent out somehow got a lot of attention.

Ah, the Internet. Gotta love it.

A Truth About Me

MoMA 2018
Five years ago, I began to explore
a truth about me I had buried
all my life. I'm gay.

When I was young, I didn't know
anyone who was gay.
I knew I was different
because I was gay.
And because being different
was weird as a kid,
I convinced myself I liked boys
because it was easier than
being different. 

As a teenager, very few people
were out in my high school.
It wasn't like how it is now.
So I told myself I wasn't gay
and carried on like
I was like everyone else.
But I'm not like everyone else
and that's okay.

Three years ago, I began
coming out to my family and friends.
I was met with love and acceptance
from those who I told.
My mom even said she knew
before I told her.

The LGBTQ+ community is becoming
more accepted,
society is slowly changing.
Though we still have a
long way to go.

For me, pride month is a reminder
that it's okay to be myself.
That I don't have to live up
to anyone else's standards
but my own. And that's a
beautiful thing.

Happy Pride Month!!! 

Mikey And Me

Mikey
Sitting in the shade with Mikey
on the back deck.
I'm reading a book,
he's under my legs.
He looks so peaceful
drifting in and out of sleep.
I sip my chai latte
and watch pollen 
float through the air.
One lands on my cat,
another lands on my dress.
I cover my cup to protect my drink.
Mikey wakes when birds chirp
or children scream.
An airplane flies overhead
that I cannot see.

What I’ve Been Clicking On – Part 6

  1. Vogue Magazine – The 15 LGBTQ+ Books We’re Most Excited About This Year
  2. The New York Times – A Recharged New York, Through Young Eyes
  3. The New York Times – New York Is Back. Now It Has a Second Chance
  4. The New York Times – A Summer of Reading
  5. Substack – Hot Divorcée Summer
  6. Substack – A bit of work by Patti Smith
  7. Elle Magazine – Shelf Life: Ashley C. Ford
  8. Edward Hopper, Summer Evening, 1947
  9. Paris Review – How to Write By Anne Waldman
  10. there must be one thing you can’t have in order to be alive by Jon-Michael Frank

Summer

I love how summer returns you to yourself – Alex Dimitrov

Summer is approaching.
The warm air has returned.
I'm happy taking photos of flowers
and staying outside for hours.
This is when I can breathe
without worrying about
my lungs freezing.
I pay attention
while getting lost
in my thoughts,
it's a balancing act
I can never fully figure out.

What I’ve Been Clicking On – Part 5

  1. New York Times – Transport Yourself With a Literary Escape This Summer
  2. LA Times – How Hailee Steinfeld learned to open up by playing poet Emily Dickinson
  3. Vogue – Shawn Mendes on How Meditation Has Transformed His Relationship—And His Sense of Self
  4. YouTube – Olivia Rodrigo – A Short Film (Vevo LIFT)
  5. Instagram – The Cast of Friends on Zoom
  6. Netflix – The Center Will Not Hold, A Documentary on Joan Didion
  7. Calm App – a meditation on setting social media boundaries
  8. Twitter – where was her origin story
  9. Twitter – HAPPY PRIDE MONTH FROM ME AND MY CAT
  10. Twitter – from Lisel Mueller’s “Why We Tell Stories”

What I’ve Been Clicking On – Part 4

  1. “Alison, can you explain what Internet is?”
  2. This donkey is reunited with the girl who raised it.
  3. Kristen Radtke Considers Another American Epidemic: Loneliness
  4. This Bodega Cat
  5. This Is Us in Chronological Order
  6. A tweet that made me laugh.
  7. Ariana Grande’s Beautiful Wedding
  8. Your Friend Doesn’t Want the Vaccine. What Do You Say?
  9. Tidbits from The Friends Reunion
  10. Kendall Jenner Opens Up About Anticipatory Anxiety

Self-Love

Noun.

I’m no longer willing to sit in my past
watching everything I did wrong pass by me.
Instead of feeling shame, I'm choosing love.
It's a choice that has to be made often
but it gets easier the more I'm aware of
how I'm talking to myself.

I'm choosing to give myself love by
living in the present.
When I get caught up in an anxious
thought, I respond with forgiveness
instead of judgment.

I sit outside as often
as I can because I feel better.
When I sit outside, I'm present.
I feel the warm air on my skin,
I breathe in the alluring
smells of nearby flowers.
I can sit with a book and
be totally happy.