What Cannot Be Controlled

“I’m the vice president of panic, and the president is missing.” – Paige Lewis My right eye is filling up with water As soon as it meets the morning light. I am afraid to look at today’s news. I wonder which version of events are worth clinging to. I want to remember this moment likeContinue reading “What Cannot Be Controlled”

An Ode to Double Vision

Ten months without you vanishes with your unexpected return in late July. I liked you better when you lived in my memories. You came barging in without warning. Your presence is most obvious morning and night. I don’t know what you expect me to say, I literally cannot see because of you. I cannot readContinue reading “An Ode to Double Vision”

Crazy Dreams, Quiet Neighborhoods, & Migraines

Have you’ve been having crazy dreams lately? I noticed I’ve had an increase in nightmares a few nights ago. Weird dreams that bring out my worst fears. Such as being left by someone I’m close or hiding from someone who doesn’t have good intentions. I’ve only woken up once this week and felt shaken byContinue reading “Crazy Dreams, Quiet Neighborhoods, & Migraines”

Seeing the Light

Double vision is no longer interrupting my days. I can stay up until 1am without my reality splitting apart. I can wake up without objects in my room hovering over each other. People no longer have four eyes when I look at them! I do have a little double on the outer edges of myContinue reading “Seeing the Light”

Mantra for the Madness

The sounds of a cold echo between buildings. He ignores the coughing and sneezing, Turning up the volume on his headphones, Blasting a rock song into his brain. Everyone’s worried for no reason. That’s his mantra for the madness. He walks into a bar as rain begins to fall. There are people gathered together inContinue reading “Mantra for the Madness”

Close Focus

Lately, my eyes have been focusing differently.Whenever anything is near my eyes, ie a book or phone screen, my eyes will innately focus on that one thing while everything beyond what I’m focusing on blurs. It’s like focusing in portrait mode, the background becomes fuzzy while the words I’m reading become better than crystal clear.ThisContinue reading “Close Focus”

One Year with Abnormally Puffy Eyes

I was in a McDonald’s bathroom somewhere in Iowa.I was exhausted from a weekend full of family time and walking around the Minnesota State Fair.My dad and I had left a few hours before dawn and began the long drive back home.As soon as we got on the road, I instantly fell back asleep, holdingContinue reading “One Year with Abnormally Puffy Eyes”

Trials and Tribulations

When I started my blog a year ago, I didn’t expect to be dealing with the issues I have now. Last year, I was just diagnosed with Hashimoto’s and finishing up my degree in English. These last few months have been defined by my health, particularly my thyroid eye disease. It’s sad but true. EyesContinue reading “Trials and Tribulations”

The Purple Tulip

The purple tulip arrived a week agoand will not leave. I glare at it througha mirror reflection, trying to comprehendhow it might have appeared at this timeeight days ago. No one warned meI would receive a tulip. Everyone I ask doesn’t seem to have an answer on where it came from or why it’s here.TheContinue reading “The Purple Tulip”