Turn Off

The tv is too loud, screaming news overwhelmingly bleak. So I leave it off and turn to books and podcasts. I turn off my phone for hours at a time. I turn off social media and embrace the quiet. I lie down with a pillow over my eyes, listening to a story. I sit byContinue reading “Turn Off”

Brain Reset

It feels like her brain constantly resets. That’s the best way I can understand it. To watch the ones you love become different people is disheartening. It’s the disease they have that causes them to revert to children or toddlersdepending on how bad it is.You love them but it’s difficult to watch. It’s difficult toContinue reading “Brain Reset”

Disappeared

It’s clear to me that seasons no longer exist. They only exist as dates on a calendar, marking the passage of time. The rest has faded away to a time and place the planet no longer knows. We’ve had at least five major snow storms in the last two months. It’s autumn, where leaves areContinue reading “Disappeared”

Look at the Green Grass

You choose to look at the dead field instead of the green grass.Why?The cliché phrase is true, you know?The grass is greener on the other side.Someone may tell you to look at the field. The green one, not the one with no life.You won’t look at it until someone tells you.But then you look atContinue reading “Look at the Green Grass”

Stiff Upper Lip

I’ve been thinking a lot about words lately. Last week, I shared a blog post about how powerful words can be. A few days ago, I published an essay about how important it is to be aware of the power of your words when sharing online. I wrote the essay after watching a preview clip of MeghanContinue reading “Stiff Upper Lip”

No Point of Reference

With each passing day, I’ve come to realize that for the last twenty-five years I have lived in my body, I haven’t really known the skin I’ve lived in. In the sense that I don’t pay attention to something until I’m forced to look at it by way of injury or illness. The same questionsContinue reading “No Point of Reference”

#MeToo, One Year Later

One year ago, I was in a hotel room in New York City, about to leave and take the N train from 42nd street to 23rd street to see the Flatiron building, when I got a notification on my phone from CNN. There was a breaking story on Harvey Weinstein in the New Yorker. TheContinue reading “#MeToo, One Year Later”

Tweets from Sunday

August 12th, 2018 6:15 am I love when I’m in a place and my phone isn’t on the forefront of my mind. 6:50 am This is so important for someone like me who seemingly can’t detach from the lure of always needing to be updated on who posted what and when on Instagram. 7:01 amContinue reading “Tweets from Sunday”

AIS: Speak Freely Live Fearlessly

This week at the American Institute for Stuttering has been amazing. I went in with a few ideas of what I wanted to work on and I’m leaving having learned a lot about myself and my stutter with the tools to navigate this lifelong journey of stuttering. I learned little things I have known about myself butContinue reading “AIS: Speak Freely Live Fearlessly”

Toothache

Lower left side of my mouth, right if I’m staring into a mirror.   It’s all in my head, it only aches when I’m out of ideas.   When I’m writing, reading, watching tv, or eating, there’s no pain.   None. As if I’m in a bad dream.   But I’m awake because I canContinue reading “Toothache”