My Body Remembers

My body remembers feeling the pain. I wasn’t supposed to feel pain. And yet, it’s ingrained in my body. Something went wrong. Nothing’s wrong now. And yet, I’m crying. The fear my body holds is visceral. My brain tries to calm me down. It does not work. I keep crying, I breathe. I panic. IContinue reading “My Body Remembers”

Quiet Mind

I sit in a room with my legs crossed and my hands on my knees. I’m focused on my breath, trying hard to ignore my racing thoughts. The music is relaxing and the yoga teacher is the only one who is speaking. Her presence is calming and trusting. I feel safe. I’m trying to getContinue reading “Quiet Mind”

Stiff Upper Lip

I’ve been thinking a lot about words lately. Last week, I shared a blog post about how powerful words can be. A few days ago, I published an essay about how important it is to be aware of the power of your words when sharing online. I wrote the essay after watching a preview clip of MeghanContinue reading “Stiff Upper Lip”

Hello Stranger

I wake up in the morning and do not feel like myself. My body aches in unfamiliar ways. The joints in my hands crack, my right thumb somehow feels unnerved. The muscles in my back and neck haven’t been the same since experiencing multiple panic attacks. I look in the mirror and do not recognizeContinue reading “Hello Stranger”

Divided Mind

The mind is at war with itself. Tugging back and forth between what is rational and what is emotional.Foreign emotions ride the wave of overwhelming intensity, crashing into reasoning before the mind can  comprehend what is happening. Thoughts are left swirling in madness as the heart shutters like it’s surrounded by blowing snowin the middle ofContinue reading “Divided Mind”

Important Note

Unexpected events can often spark the flight or fight response. Overwhelming thoughts that presentthe worst to the extremecome barging into your head when the universetakes you down a road withoutgiving you a heads up before the decision is made.In those moments, the only thing you can control is how you react to those shifts.I’ve always been someoneContinue reading “Important Note”

The Lingering Cold

I’ve been sick six times this year. For me, that’s a lot. Normally, I get sick once a year. Sneezing for a week or two, maybe lose my voice, and feel crappy. But it doesn’t last. I get my annual cold out of the way with and carry on with my life.  This year, I’veContinue reading “The Lingering Cold”

#HowDemiHasHelpedMe

Yesterday, it was reported Demi Lovato was rushed to the hospital because of an overdose. Some were reporting it was a heroin overdose. No matter what it was, hearing this news broke my heart. I’ve been a fan of Demi’s for over a decade and her music has really helped in times where I didn’tContinue reading “#HowDemiHasHelpedMe”