Life’s Going to Change

I’m a young woman with lung disease and a thyroid autoimmune disease.I was born three months early.A ventilator helped my under-developed lungs breathe for the first six weeks of my life.I was on oxygen for the first 2 1/2 years of my life.I’ve been on oxygen a couple of times since.I take an inhaler twiceContinue reading “Life’s Going to Change”

Beach Day

The sun reflects off the sand and the water, Causing reality to brighten passed the point of comfort. This moment is now blinded by light, As many people continue on with their time. How is everyone not impacted by this brightness? She thinks as she puts her phone back in her bag. Exchanging her phoneContinue reading “Beach Day”

Turn Off

The tv is too loud, screaming news overwhelmingly bleak. So I leave it off and turn to books and podcasts. I turn off my phone for hours at a time. I turn off social media and embrace the quiet. I lie down with a pillow over my eyes, listening to a story. I sit byContinue reading “Turn Off”

healing

breathe in breathe out through the belly close my eyes focus on nothing calm the mind stop overthinking i’m healing my body is doing what it’s supposed to do things are improving round up my distractions they no longer serve me their familiarity isn’t comforting like breathing is in and out in and out distractionsContinue reading “healing”

My Body Remembers

My body remembers feeling the pain. I wasn’t supposed to feel pain. And yet, it’s ingrained in my body. Something went wrong. Nothing’s wrong now. And yet, I’m crying. The fear my body holds is visceral. My brain tries to calm me down. It does not work. I keep crying, I breathe. I panic. IContinue reading “My Body Remembers”

Quiet Mind

I sit in a room with my legs crossed and my hands on my knees. I’m focused on my breath, trying hard to ignore my racing thoughts. The music is relaxing and the yoga teacher is the only one who is speaking. Her presence is calming and trusting. I feel safe. I’m trying to getContinue reading “Quiet Mind”

Stiff Upper Lip

I’ve been thinking a lot about words lately. Last week, I shared a blog post about how powerful words can be. A few days ago, I published an essay about how important it is to be aware of the power of your words when sharing online. I wrote the essay after watching a preview clip of MeghanContinue reading “Stiff Upper Lip”

Hello Stranger

I wake up in the morning and do not feel like myself. My body aches in unfamiliar ways. The joints in my hands crack, my right thumb somehow feels unnerved. The muscles in my back and neck haven’t been the same since experiencing multiple panic attacks. I look in the mirror and do not recognizeContinue reading “Hello Stranger”

Divided Mind

The mind is at war with itself. Tugging back and forth between what is rational and what is emotional.Foreign emotions ride the wave of overwhelming intensity, crashing into reasoning before the mind can  comprehend what is happening. Thoughts are left swirling in madness as the heart shutters like it’s surrounded by blowing snowin the middle ofContinue reading “Divided Mind”

Important Note

Unexpected events can often spark the flight or fight response. Overwhelming thoughts that presentthe worst to the extremecome barging into your head when the universetakes you down a road withoutgiving you a heads up before the decision is made.In those moments, the only thing you can control is how you react to those shifts.I’ve always been someoneContinue reading “Important Note”