An Ode to Double Vision

Ten months without you vanishes with your unexpected return in late July. I liked you better when you lived in my memories. You came barging in without warning. Your presence is most obvious morning and night. I don’t know what you expect me to say, I literally cannot see because of you. I cannot readContinue reading “An Ode to Double Vision”

Seeing the Light

Double vision is no longer interrupting my days. I can stay up until 1am without my reality splitting apart. I can wake up without objects in my room hovering over each other. People no longer have four eyes when I look at them! I do have a little double on the outer edges of myContinue reading “Seeing the Light”

Change in Vision

Once again, I’m dealing with a shift of something I cannot control. My eyes are at the mercy of time and decrease swelling. This last week, I’ve noticed an increase of in double vision. In looking at my phone or reading a book, words split suddenly. This morning, I woke up to a reality hoveringContinue reading “Change in Vision”

When Time Slowed Down

When I was a child, time moved slowly. I’d go out front and climb the tree that was in our yard. I felt like I was out there for hours when it was probably about thirty minutes. I was present. I wasn’t distracting myself with my own thoughts. I wasn’t worried about what I hadContinue reading “When Time Slowed Down”

Close Focus

Lately, my eyes have been focusing differently.Whenever anything is near my eyes, ie a book or phone screen, my eyes will innately focus on that one thing while everything beyond what I’m focusing on blurs. It’s like focusing in portrait mode, the background becomes fuzzy while the words I’m reading become better than crystal clear.ThisContinue reading “Close Focus”

One Year with Abnormally Puffy Eyes

I was in a McDonald’s bathroom somewhere in Iowa.I was exhausted from a weekend full of family time and walking around the Minnesota State Fair.My dad and I had left a few hours before dawn and began the long drive back home.As soon as we got on the road, I instantly fell back asleep, holdingContinue reading “One Year with Abnormally Puffy Eyes”

II

There’s a split in my reality  every morning and night.  When what I see doubles  into this hallucination like state,  my brain is confused. My eyes  don’t work together for longer than  twelve hours a day. Individually, they’re fine. Left is down  and right is up. If I cover one,  my vision is single andContinue reading “II”

Trials and Tribulations

When I started my blog a year ago, I didn’t expect to be dealing with the issues I have now. Last year, I was just diagnosed with Hashimoto’s and finishing up my degree in English. These last few months have been defined by my health, particularly my thyroid eye disease. It’s sad but true. EyesContinue reading “Trials and Tribulations”

A Poem About Nothing

Spring has arrived along with the remnants of winter.Snow one day, seventy degrees the next.You never know what you’re going to get.The grass is greener as bees flyand house cats beg to come back inside.Days are longer, thoughts are shorter.Everything looks different upon reflection.Awareness changes thoughts and perspective,for once I can look at my interactionsContinue reading “A Poem About Nothing”

Hello Stranger

I wake up in the morning and do not feel like myself. My body aches in unfamiliar ways. The joints in my hands crack, my right thumb somehow feels unnerved. The muscles in my back and neck haven’t been the same since experiencing multiple panic attacks. I look in the mirror and do not recognizeContinue reading “Hello Stranger”