dentist ptsd

I ground myself in the chair pushing the thoughts out of my mind as best I can knowing they’re forever ingrained in my body I shake I cry communication makes me feel safe communication makes me laugh I don’t always have to live in the past the present can be a little joyful mostly bearableContinue reading “dentist ptsd”

Moon in Full

October’s chill hits my skin. I step out into the night, my barefoot on the cold wood. Moon so crystal clear, so pretty, so bright. I gasp at the sight of the shine. How clearly I can make out its craters. It reminds me of the midday sun. I try to snap a photo butContinue reading “Moon in Full”

autumnal equinox

the crisp clung in the midwest air as the wind blew slightly cool. autumn arrived over night, driving from one state to another, the change in weather marked the beginning of fall layers. the clouds moved in and by night, rain was covering the road. red wine and dancing was mixed with cozy blankets andContinue reading “autumnal equinox”

misty rain on saturday

When you enter a place of stillness, you awaken the divinity within you. Peggy Sealfon hiding from the chill of early september under the pile of blankets in my bed fuzzy socks on my cold feet I reread a book I first read in college misty rain on saturday cozy day inside my body isContinue reading “misty rain on saturday”

end of june blues

the end of pride month grief lingers heavy in the summer air I cannot properly put into words how I am feeling still in the midst of processing the weight of the fact that women in this country are not allowed to choose what’s best for their bodies

Tired

How many kids have to die in school in order for change to happen? I am tired of seeing the same news cycle trying to in-act some type of change but nothing works. Nothing works. Why? Why do these events keep occurring and we’re left hopeless? Why do parents keep on losing their kids thisContinue reading “Tired”

Lost Dog

Nights spent waiting for the dog to bark again. He’s lost his center to the dark. I wake up at two three four in the morning and try to get him to calm down. For someone with anxiety, I don’t do a good job at comforting him. I’m short with him, I yell, I getContinue reading “Lost Dog”

It’s Been A Minute

The seasons have changed once again somehow I’ve missed it. I didn’t enjoy the autumn leaves like I normally do. And winter…well, winter came and went, the lack of snowstorms made time move faster than the average year. I can tell it’s spring by my stuffy nose and puffy eyes, I always forget I haveContinue reading “It’s Been A Minute”