happy place

For two days, I disconnect from my reality. Time moves slowly. I trace the sun across the cloudless sky, rising up on one side of the horizon then falling below the other. I read my book, write poems in my journal, and only grab my phone to capture this beautiful view. For the first timeContinue reading “happy place”

Each Step

I walk by the ocean and breathe in the salt air. I can breathe easy here. I can walk for miles on roads and sand without hesitation. My body gets stronger with each step I take. I am not dragged down by the lack of oxygen. This is how I show myself love. This isContinue reading “Each Step”

Facing the Strange

I face all the scary strange feelings of this moment. I don’t shy away from feeling all my fears, all my joy, all my excitement and anxiety that comes along with stepping into something new and unknown. I breathe through panic and distraction. I am present and focused on the now. I remind myself toContinue reading “Facing the Strange”

How to be Present

embracing the moment I am in, appreciating the day for what it is, leaving my phone in another room, keeping it out of my reach, breathing through the scary feelings my anxiety reminds me to worry, it takes a lot of work and self- awareness to live in the present, to read a book withoutContinue reading “How to be Present”

Self-Talk

The way we talk to ourselves reflects how we view ourselves. We often do it without thinking, the little comments that fall out of our mouths whispered under our breath are quickly forgotten as we move from one moment to the next swept up by the busyness of the day. Only when we become awareContinue reading “Self-Talk”

mindfulness

a state of awareness brought on by breathing my skin is red from the heat of this bath I massage my neck with my finger tips and slip into nothingness, happy I watch my thoughts drift away I move the water around me I breathe in through my belly I hold my breath I releaseContinue reading “mindfulness”

Both Things Can Be True

For so many years, I lived in fear of what other people have to say. I was always afraid of what could happen if I spoke my truth. If I shared something, what would people think? What would they say? What would the inevitable response be? Recently, I realized it doesn’t matter what other peopleContinue reading “Both Things Can Be True”

Mikey And Me

Sitting in the shade with Mikey on the back deck. I’m reading a book, he’s under my legs. He looks so peaceful drifting in and out of sleep. I sip my chai latte and watch pollen float through the air. One lands on my cat, another lands on my dress. I cover my cup toContinue reading “Mikey And Me”

Self-Love

Noun. I’m no longer willing to sit in my past watching everything I did wrong pass by me. Instead of feeling shame, I’m choosing love. It’s a choice that has to be made often but it gets easier the more I’m aware of how I’m talking to myself. I’m choosing to give myself love byContinue reading “Self-Love”

Anxious

Adjective. It’s like spinning around the room, unsure of what led you here. You were fine and now you’re filled with overwhelming thoughts. Time and therapy has taught you to breathe, controlling the anxious feeling isn’t easy. Sometimes it’s doable, sometimes you just have to wait for it to get bored and move onto otherContinue reading “Anxious”